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I have a really bizarre feeling that I’m going to get asked out soon. It’s really weird…
Listen, people. I went through my first spin class today.
I don’t know how I keep putting my body through all this and still have so much fat. Literally don’t get it.
It wasn’t as bad as they say, but I think it’s because I didn’t quite understand what to do at first.
Definitely going back.
Also ran for a half hour today.
Haha well dang, early throw back Thursday. Who knew I’d be teaching now?
Signed up for a half in two weeks. Am I crazy?
It’s been a while and I’m not sorry.
A while ago I asked a few of the guys to teach me how to do pull ups. Or at least the exercises I need to do to work up to them. I had an older gentleman show me some exercises.
When he did, he started lecturing me on how losing weight would help out and make it easier to do pull ups. He went on to explain that doing 30 mins of cardio every other day would only burn a couple tablespoons of fat. I just listened because, well, after the 99th time this has happened to you you just kind of take it.
You see. Losing weight isn’t just about being skinny or looking great. Losing weight is about not having to deal with people judging your past, present, or future consistently.
I decide that picture is proof, so I found my old race comparison picture and downloaded it to my phone. I saw him walking out of the gym and showed it to him. He said wow, that’s great. And that’s all I needed to hear. I didn’t lecture him back or say anything, just showed him. On his way out he said take my number so we can work out together. He is older and has an 18 yo daughter, and per my moral standards I don’t exchange numbers with men who are in relationships (I didn’t know his relationship status at the time). I said that it’s very random when I work out and that if we meet at the same time it’ll be fate. So he leaves. 15 minutes later Kathy, my coworker, gets a phone call. It’s him. She said Sarah, it’s him calling for you. I was like weird, still completely unsuspecting. I don’t remember much of the conversation before this, but I basically said “so what’s up?” and he said “I want to know if you want to go out after work to get drinks some time”. And I said “I’m sorry but I have a lot going on, I work a full time job, this part time job, and own a business. Try again in two years.” He says “Ok, well 2 years is a long time, I’m going to try again in a month”.
It just goes to show that truly if a guy wants to ask a girl out, he will figure out a way.
The first time I’ve ever been asked on a date was by a 42 year old.
Soo… that brings me to my next topic.
I went to Chicago this past weekend. S&B weren’t there to pick me up, so 5D did. I was nervous I wouldn’t have anything to talk about with him. Then I found out how personable he is; and how similar we are. I found out how even though I thought he was phlegmatic, he’s actually really choleric. How open he is about his past and about details (something C never was). How he wants a hummer because of stupid drivers. How he was able to get me to do something without telling me to do it (huge deal). How passionate he is about being part of a team. How, when we were talking about moving on, he was excited about playing a role in B&S being a wingman team. And how, right after that I said yeah, because when that happens it’s going to create a surge on our team and move us forward as well. So our efforts in supporting them is going to be multiplied. And then three days later someone on his team wrote a message saying that 5D was teaching exactly what I said to him the week prior. He has pretty much everything from my list so far.
I don’t know how he feels. I can make all the excuses in the world saying why he wouldn’t text me to make conversation. It feels really good to get my hopes up that something could happen. That maybe, just maybe, he would be the one. But then the little voice in my head says, “don’t go down this road again. You remember what happened last time? The pain you felt when he ended up with someone else? Don’t be vulnerable. Don’t think about it.” and just like that I’m into depriving myself from something that makes me feel so much joy because of the anticipation of what could happen.
And it makes me want to cry.
When am I going to be all of someone’s list? When am I ever going to be loved?
Last night I dreamt I had this really great kiss with a guy from the gym. He’s really good looking and is going to school for pharmacy then his phd.
I can’t get it off my mind. It was too perfect.
Life updates: I took the spin instructor training today.
Just need cpr and to pass the test.
Who’s coming to my class? ! ?